----April 13, 2017----
Before I start, I wanna thank everyone who took the time to comment on my last journal ("DA not the same..."). I really appreciate your kind words. Even though I haven't replied to them all, I did read through them and actually still have them in my message bin lol.
Anyways onto recent stuff~
So I haven't been that active lately because I am working now( I told a few people here and there, not sure I mentioned in a journal). I got hired in late December, though I didn't want to say anything until probation was up. Reason for that was because last year I got hired somewhere else and I was let go after a few days. That experience took a huge toll on my confidence and was overall just humiliating.....I thought I wasn't able to handle the job and that I wasted my time in school for it...I was barely given a chance
So yeah, this time around I wanted to make sure that I had it for sure before I shared the news. That was honestly one of the big reasons why 2016 was terrible for me
However where I am now I am a lot happier, and I feel a lot more confident and actually feel like I'm part of a team. Considering how much of a shy person I am, this is a huge accomplishment for me
My shifts are split, so I come home for a few hours in the day and I use some time at home to play some games and of course work on comics~ My pace goes up and down with my mood and depends if I'm tired or not. I get up at 5:30am, so there will be days where I just wanna sit and Netflix it until it's time to go back to work LOL.
Aside from comics, I will be slow with commissions as well, so as usual just be patient with me, message me if you have to give me a nudge...I'm cool with it
I'm working on getting a routine again that way things can progress at a nice pace. I will do my best
With all that said, I hope everyone enjoys the long weekend and has a Happy Easter!
If you don't celebrate, enjoy the weekend! It's awesome either way
Thanks for reading
P.S. Crazy Direct yesterday...all those new Amiibos...; ^ ;
----Jan 8, 2017----
First off, Happy (belated) New Year! I hope everyone had a good time during the holidays and such.
Now with a new year you stop to reflect on things and set goals for yourself. I obviously and always wanna post more, but unfortunately it's a bit difficult to get all that I want done due to things out in the real world. However, it's not just life that takes a toll on my motivation, but the way DA is now as a whole that kinda puts a halt on things. Now I know I don't really reply much since there are so many messages and I have the tendency to over think things when I have to reply, hence why I'm always late...especially when I have to comment on someone else's work. I save them cause I personally want to leave a nice comment (as best I can), that's just me
I understand not everyone wants to, just over the years though I have seen a huge decline in feedback, not only on art, but on polls as well as journals. To which I find it very hard to keep my interest and motivation here since I am giving updates about comics/art and stuff, as well as giving opportunities to have you guys choose what I should post next or what kind of rewards you would like for patreon, and to even play games here to win art (tried that once with BINGO, very few played). It's just for some fun interaction that I wanted between me and fans.
So this leaves me not knowing what to do in terms of socializing here. I am shy and of course an introvert to boot, but I still do like to talk to people, or at least hear from them when I'm trying to reach out. I am sorry if my introverted-ness comes off negatively towards you guys at times. I'm just a shy person, that's it lol. I do have my gallery and followers in mind, so I am always trying to make time to put stuff out there for everyone including myself, it's just hard lately for the reasons above.
I hope what I'm trying to say makes some sense...not saying that this will change anything, but it has been on my mind lately that I just needed to vent a bit
In short DA just doesn't seem the same anymore, and I feel I was only good for a certain time period....or maybe people are sick of waiting for me.